Thursday, November 14, 2013
Happy Birthday to Me! The Pitfalls and Advantages of Turning 35
The first half of the year crawled by on a plateau. I had two releases that didn't gain much traction, and only one orchestra concert in sight- a smaller gig that only lasted three days. But, in the last few months, a lot of things have happened for the good. So, I'm happy to say if someone was to go back to younger Aubrie and tell her she'd be in this place at 35, she would have been jumping for joy.
So the pitfalls first....
1. Yes, I have wrinkles. You can see them around my eyes, especially when I laugh and squint. Oh well, bound to happen sometime.
2. My metabolism has slowed down to a halt. I used to be able to eat a whole bag of cookies and put on my jeans no problem. Now, I don't even eat cookies anymore and I still have to jog and do pilates just to fit in jeans that were bigger than before. The day I had to swap out all my pants for a bigger size was a sad day indeed. But, it's part of growing up. Can't wear teenybopper jeans forever.
3. Young people look like babies to me. The first time I watched Lord of the Rings ten years ago, I was very interested in Legolas. Now, when I watch it, he looks like my younger brother, and I find myself thinking Aragorn doesn't look half bad. Hmmmmmm....that makes me feel pretty old.
But, the birthday I felt the oldest was last year when I realized I was the same age as Bill Murray in the Ghostbusters movies. When I watched those as a kid, I thought- look at those goofy old guys. I've never going to be as old as them. And here I am today.
Those disadvantages aren't that bad.
Now the exciting things I've been waiting for:
1. A contract with a BIG SIX publisher! This one is so new, I can't even announce it yet because I'm waiting on the final signature, but it is going to happen, and soon. I can't wait to tell you about it. I've been waiting for this ever since I started writing about 7-8 years ago. For a while, I thought it would never happen.
2. My principal flute orchestra seat! This has been ten years in the making. The last time I played principal flute consistently with an orchestra was back in 2004, and even then I was like a long term sub. Then, I lost the seat to someone else. For years I pieced together orchestra gigs as a sub, and now I finally have a home to call my own. This took many years of hard work, a few crazy stressful auditions, and a whole lotta waiting.
3. A New Flute! I've been playing on the same Brannen flute for the last twenty years of my life. Sure, it's a great flute, but I chose it when I was a teenager, and I wasn't sure what I'd be wanting twenty years down the line. Because of my orchestra seat, my husband and I scraped together the money to get me a deeper sounding flute with a 10k gold headjoint. Sure, it's as expensive as a car, but I use it every day of my life, and it makes me sound so good. Isn't it pretty?
In conclusion, yes I'm older, slower, and wrinklier, but I have so much to be thankful for. Finally, my hard work is paying off. All I had to do was keep at it year and after and never stop believing in myself.